first thing first LOVE -MY FIRST TOPIC

WELL HELLO FELLOW BLOGGERS AND PPL WHO JUST WANNA READ .....THANKS FOR TAKING THE TIME ....I have less than 2 weeks till my 25th birthday and alots been on my mind so i decided the way to express all my feelings was to create this blog if no one but me enjoys reading it that perfect fine it just feels good to get things out u no SO HERE GOES .....

My love life has always been somewhat no existant and on the eve of making a quarter of a century it has really began to bother me, now dont get me wrong i've always had a boo or a cuddy buddy or someone i was interested in but i've never had a true genuine relationship not the one in the movies but the general hi ....this is my boyfriend ____nope neva had that even with the first guy i loved yea he says we were together and i was his girlfriend and f course i believed that as well but there was never any actual discussion and any particular day where we decided that we were a couple so i believe that whole 3 years plus doesnt even count .......He was in all honesty the only guy i have ever loved tho which brings me to where i am with this love life situation. I really wanna find someone but I feel like it wont ever happen again this guy was the one for me in every aspect but he just wouldnt commit or give me the type of love I needed or hell even deserved. I'm now watching as my closet love challenged friends are entering into long term relationships, the friends that swore off kids are popping out babies , it seems as if everyones lives are evolving and im at a stand still why is that. Im a good person i've tried to do so many things and treated eople relatively well for the most part lol so what is the problem i recently did something rather disturbing to even prove to myslef i was over my ex. All my life i've been kinda none rebellious and unadventurous when it came to men and being casual. At the begging of 2010 I decided i was no longer gonna do that so I became my version of promiscuous (but hey i still wont ever beat some of my homies lol) and in doing so I found that has'nt brought me comfort either I seriously think I was designed too be in a relationship. Im hoping that soon I will find someone who has the mind set im looking for and the time to grow with a pperson as complex as me. Until then I be writing in my blog but not always about me about everything from the reality shows im addicted too to the things I see everyday on the streets AND MOST CERTAINLY ABOUT MUSIC BECAUSE I LOVE MUSIC MORE THAN ANYTHING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well thats it for now ....yeah my first blog is complete ..hope u enjoy ...signed Miss No Regrets